new way to blog…

I'm going to try this nifty blogger feature that lets me email my
writings instead of signing in to send them. Not that using the blogger
site is hard, I just like to try new things every once in a while. And
plus, sending an email is a really simple thing to do, especially if I
only want to post a song or to write a sentence or two.

I woke up this morning to the zunrise, a little earlier then I normally
do, which was perfect. It was a beautiful morning, the sun was shinning
brightly and it felt like spring. I took a walk then went to school to
work for a few hours knowing that I was going to go over to see someone
special tonight, not that we had any special plans, and we certainly
aren't lacking in time spent together, but I was looking forward to
getting together and building a bookcase. Meanwhile, I come home from
school and find a message on my phone by a friend who I've been trying
to find time to hang out with for some time. hmmmm. decision time.
I'll admit what I chose in the end wasn't my first choice. But I did
have fun, we played some chess, talked about evangelism and missions,
ate some burritos (from this cool kensington restaurant {I got a yam
burrito} mmm) and rented a movie. Still, the entire time I wished I
could have gone up to 4 Burlington. I don't know why. I guess it's just
more comfortable.
Which makes me kind of think about loving those around us. It's funny,
others seem to have a problem with those who are unlovable or who think
different because they do think very differently. They seem to wonder
how people can be so cruel, or insensitive to others around them, not
realizing that everyone has a story. Or getting frustrated when people
fail to make changes in their own life, yet are always crying out for
help. And I'm still wrestling with the concept of how we can lead
others lovingly to change without having an “agenda”. But when it
really comes down to showing Christ to people, and having a passion for
those who don't know Him, I find myself disturbingly apathetic. There's
a line in a relient k song that goes like this “It seems our fate is
something we've already embraced”. And it's true. The souls of my
friends, profs and classmates don't stir me to prayer, much less stir
me enough to talk to them. Something needs to change Lord Jesus,
soften my heart, break it if you must. Teach me to see your created
beings, your children whom You breathed life into, as You do.

here's the rest of that song…

APATHETIC WAY TO BE
– Relient k

Yeah, I'm not angry
and no, I'm not upset
it's taken me awhile
but this is what I've learned
emotional attachment is really not a threat
when I'm simply not concerned

The things that I take on
I soon shrug off
'cause I know no one
will ever be content
with the way things are
or with what they've got
so I've given up and now I'm just indifferent

You will laugh at me
like I'm not happy
with anything, any time, anywhere
and the half of me's all about apathy
and the other half just doesn't care

I must admit;
all the words you spoke, I hated
cause I don't see just how I can be motivated
I'm left to break a sweat over a dying race
it seems our fate is something we've already embraced

Yeah, I'm not angry,
and no, I'm not upset
it's taken me awhile
but this is what I've learned
emotional attachment is really not a threat
when I'm simply not concerned

You will laugh at me
like I'm not happy
with anything, any time, anywhere
and the half of me's all about apathy
and the other half just doesn't care

Yeah, bein' apathetic's a pathetic way to be (I don't care)
What matters to you does not matter to me ('cause I don't care)

So take a wild guess
it's like I just couldn't care less
if all the things you find impressive
just blew up and made those messes
that you'll frantically repair
like kissing leopards at the fair
and all the while you're unaware
for this, you really shouldn't care

but it's so hard to see the reality
that the end will be the end of things
and our hearts are all we get to bring
so let's go ahead and make them worth something

You will laugh at me
like I'm not happy
with anything, any time, anywhere
and the half of me's all about apathy
and the other half just doesn't care

I'm well aware that everything
is a far cry from all right
I'm well aware that all of us
can at times, be too uptight
and possibly, the remedy
is a dose of apathy
You point your finger at you
I'll point mine right back at me

sort of a long song, and it's really upbeat. seeing just the words
makes it sound a little too depressing. As christians we should examine
our thoughts, and being apathetic is well … a pathetic way to be.

I would have liked to come to York today too. It sounds neat. I know
Nick Shinn teaches typography there...
But that's another point althogether. Tell ‘ba’ I said hi.

It's late. good night!!